DEADLYcherry

new layout!!

2008-06-25T15:53:42Z

YAAAAAY!!!!!!
finally, I change my layout ^^ well not entirely, I just changed the background-image and the header..

my header is a bit weird ( >.< ) I'll change it if I have time, but now I just want to stare at my LJ and be proud of it lol

meme again?

2008-06-23T06:26:52Z

I Stole meme from arceydh
THE RULES

1. Post these rules.
2. Each tagged person should post 8 facts of themselves.
3. Tagged people should write a journal\blog about these facts.
4. In the end tag and name 8 people.
5. Go to their pages and comment saying that they are tagged.

8 facts about me (well not really 8 but 10, haha)
1. I love everything about art. everything. As long as they has relationship with art, I love them. Photography, design, beautiful things in life....GOD I love ART!
2. I really love music, and my hobbies is to collect all kind of music from all genre. Oh and I'm attracted to computer, technology. I like to improve my knowledge, but sometimes I'm too lazy to do all kind of things and just having fun until I have bad grade.
3. I LOVE EVERYONE WHO LOVES ME, that's for sure.
4. I love bright and dark colors. Dunno, When I see them, I see determination and strength there, just from how bright or dark the color is.
5. I tend to think too much about trivial things. My friend says that I have a complicated mind, hahaha
6. I have a reptile-phobia. Well not every reptile, mostly it's house-lizards and snakes ~~(and frogs)~~ XDDD. But I don't go screaming whenever I see them in my house or in the zoo~ I'm not that coward >,,<
7. I hate thriller and horror movie, lol. When I saw ghost's face on the movie, I couldn't take that images off from my mind, and then I'd sleep with lights switched on for 2 days lol ~~I know I'm still a kid =p~~
8. I'm so clumsy, sloppy, and careless. I tend to forget where I put things, haha
9. I often get depressed over my life and myself. I feel lonely although I have many friends-- which I know, really care about me. I have little self-esteem, and I blamed myself whenever things don't go right.
10. Sometimes I waste my money for unimportant things,and often I dont have money by the end of the months, haha.

[ignore rules #4]

mwahahahaha, this is unimportant post.lol.
well now I'll go back reading a book and you can save your eyes from reading this post XDD

GIFT IS ♥!

2008-06-20T10:24:56Z

holiday is coming!!! YAY!!!!
but........ I need to start my research project or else it won't be done this December T______T
well, first I gotta refresh my brain in a week and then start to read all theory about PCR ^^

So, I've been addicted to ARCHITECTURE IN HELSINKI's songs this week. Their songs is so cool! \(=v=)/
at first I just attracted to their cover CD's since the graphic is great. Then I bought the CD but I regreted immediately when I played some songs-- because they're filled with weird sounds lol. but when I played it again and again (which is a month after I bought that CD), I started to like them hahaha. You hafta listen to their songs, it's soooo fun! ^^

this is their CD "Places Like This" that I've bought a month ago.

Architecture In Helsinki is an Australian Band btw. here they are :

So maybe tomorrow I would buy their other CDs.. But I want to buy Club8, Electronic, Polyester Embassy,Tompi, The Changcuters, and The Rentals CDs~~~~~I think I don't have money to buy all of them Y___Y and I want to try Bjork too XDD Oh, but I heard that Arctic Monkey had released their new CD, should I buy it too? omg, I have no moneeey~ @_@

Btw, a week ago I helped an old lady to cross the street. I was on my way home after school. At first I was standing alone wanting to cross the street, then come this grandma standing beside me and said to me,"Do you want to cross the street?" FYI, the street was busy like hell and everyone drove their car like crazy that time. So I smiled to her and nodded. After the street was a bit empty, then we crossed the street together, and I even hold her arm. We parted because I wanna go to different way from her, but she said to me to be careful on my way home. I smiled to her and when I was walking, I felt this wonderful feeling in my heart. I feel... worthy.

It's been so long since I've helped other people out. Usually when I wanted to help, I don't know how to start. But that day has opened my eyes.
I promise I'll help another people more. ^^

and.....today is a special day. Why?
Because this morning there's a mail come from United States, and it was from Britt!!!

OMG BRITT, THANK YOU SOOOOO MUCH!
I LOVE THEM! the bag purse is soooo cute!! I love green color in that bag a lot. God I can't stop saying thank you. *hugs hugs hugs* And thank you for the candy. I've never ate Konpeito before.

you know what, when I received the mail in the morning, I couldn't help but jumping and screaming like crazy lol. I'm so happy I almost forgot that I still have exam today hahaha

I waited after the exam and opened the gift with my friends. When I saw this bag purse for the first time ,I fell in love XDDDD

Now I'll hug you tight and won't let you go before you turn into cute small chibi so I can put you in my new bag purse,hahaha. Oh, and the candy is so sweet and whoa, I like your gift very much! couldn't be more perfect than this. Today is not even my birthday, and you made me so happy.
God I still smiling and giggling a lot whenever I remember that you sent me gift.

You made my day.
I luv you Britt ^^

moral-sense moral-sense goodbye

2008-06-20T09:59:36Z

okay, suddenly I have the urge to post something in Bahasa Indonesia. This is not important anyway, just some critics and questions for Indonesians out there concerning some issues in my country ^^

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hh, tiba2 ingin mengkritik manusia Indonesia.

Aku ngga ngerti ama FPI dan masalah Ahmadiyah. Maksudnya apa sih mukulin orang, bawa pemukul segala macem, ngerusakin tempat2 yang menurut mereka itu sarang maksiat?

Sekarang tempat bilyar. Biliard itu olahraga, for GOD's sake! Mungkin emang betul, mungkin emang ada kejadian2 yang "maksiat",tapi apa perlu tindakan seperti itu?

Majalah Playboy juga. Halah, ngga usah pura2 buta deh, banyak banget majalah dan tabloid lain yang vulgar (dan mungkin lebih vulgar dari Playboy) beredar, tapi ngga dirusak tuh! kemaren aku juga lewat di pinggir jalan di daerah kampus (tepatnya tukang jual majalah depan mie baso akup), banyak majalah vulgar dipajang dengan bebasnya.. Lah kalo ngaku suci, ya majalah2 yang lain juga di-banned doong! aneh banget......

AKu sih ngeliatnya justru malah manusia2 anarkis itu masuk dalam dosa, hahaha. Sekarang kita ngga usah sok suci deeh! emang orang2 FPI itu BERSIH DARI DOSA ya sampe harus menghakimi orang lain? toh itu kan dosa mereka, mereka yang bakal menanggung sendiri, jadi FPI sih kayanya ngga perlu gitu2 amat de.
Aku rasa ngga perlu yang namanya menghakimi orang lain sampai orang lain itu teraniaya. Aku yakin dalam pikiran Tuhan (dan sebagian orang), yang namanya konsep orang beriman itu bukan orang yang menyakiti orang lain.

masalah Ahmadiyah juga. Mungkin aku ngga ngeliat dari sisi orang Islam, karena aku bukan orang Islam (dan bukan orang yang benar2 berpegang kepada agama). Tapi BIARLAH MEREKA MEMEGANG PRINSIP YANG MEREKA YAKINI.
sekarang kita tau dari mana kalo mereka sesat? cuma karena mereka berbeda? Sekarang liat Yesus. Yesus dulu dianggap sesat ama orang Yahudi sampai disalib dan pengikutnya dikejar-kejar orang lain buat dibunuh----tapi sekarang penganut agama Kristiani itu jumlahnya terbesar di dunia. sekali lagi, TAU DARI MANA KALO MEREKA (Ahmadiyah mxdnya) SALAH? aku rasa kita ngga usah menghakimi orang lain, menganggap mereka salah dan kita benar.

hahaha, katanya negara demokrasi. pasal 29 UUD 45 mau dikemanain tuh? aku inget banget dulu pas SD aku ngapalin pasal2 UUD ma Pancasila mati2an. Tapi kayanya percuma ya kita disuruh ngapalin, soalnya NGGA TAU MAKNANYA.
KEBEBASAN UNTUK BERAGAMA DAN BERKEYAKINAN. hahahaha, ironis banget ngga sih?
sekarang misalnya aku orang Ahmadiyah, sakit hati ngga sih tiba2 ada surat keputusan menteri yang nyuruh kita untuk tidak lagi berpegang pada prinsip, padahal jelas2 udah ada di peraturan hukum Pancasila dan UUD 45 (yang kalo ngga salah itu termasuk pedoman hukum tertinggi di Indonesia--maaf kalo salah, ngga ngambil jurusan hukum soalnya hehe) kalo kebebasan beragama itu adalah HAK tiap warga Indonesia dan itu DILINDUNGI negara. terus apa orang Ahmadiyah itu bukan warga negara Indonesia?
Tapi aku ngerti kok kalo pemerintah juga mengalami dilema. yah, ini sih kembali lagi ke wawasan dan cara berpikir orang Indonesia. kalo kata aku mah mending jadi negara sekuler deh...

Aku benci banget orang2 yang menganggap dirinya lebih benar dari orang lain.
Kalo misalnya orang lain melakukan hal atau menganut sesuatu yang menurut kita ngga bener, SO WHAT? itu pilihan mereka. Dan sekarang aku ngga mau menghakimi kalo apa yang mereka lakukan itu ngga bener. Buat apa? aku juga banyak dosa. belum tentu apa yang aku lakukan itu lebih benar dari orang lain.

Sekarang liat orang gay, lesbian, whatever. Mungkin agak2 aneh karena ada perbedaan dengan orang lain, tapi toh mereka juga MANUSIA BIASA. justru aku menganggap mereka yang mendiskriminasikan itulah yang SESAT. sebenernya apa sih tujuan hidup semua orang? KEBAHAGIAAN kan? kalo mereka bahagia dengan menjadi seperti itu, terus kenapa? justru kita yang jahat karena menghalangi kebahagiaan orang lain. Mungkin dari luar juga aku keliatan agak mendiskriminasi, sering teasing ato apa. Untuk itu aku minta maaf. Tapi aku orang yang sangat condong ke liberalisme, jadi aku terus berusaha untuk tidak mendiskriminasi orang lain.

terus kalo mau kasar, kita tuh terlalu banyak ngurusin hal yang ngga penting! perbedaan kok diributin. Mau sampe kapan, yang namanya beda ya beda, ngga bisa harus sama semua. Analoginya warna. Mentang2 kita fanatik warna ijo misalnya, ngga bisa semuanya dijadiin warna ijo.Yang ada juga mata kita sakit kan ngeliat semua barang warnanya ijo? nah sama juga,SEMUA ASPEK ITU BUTUH KESEIMBANGAN. Sekarang ngga usah urusin perbedaan, urusin tuh kesejahteraan sesama manusia Indonesia.

Udah gitu lagi, kalo dikritik dikit, langsung protes. Nangkep orang2 yang mengkritik. Nuntut band musik yang (katanya) ngga tau adat. NAH LHOOOO!!KATANYAA~~~~ NEGARA DEMOKRASI. Emangnya definisi demokrasi di Indonesia beda ya? kalo beda, cantumin atuh di Kamus Besar Bahasa Indonesia, jadi pada ngerti.

Aku kadang suka aneh ama orang Indonesia.
Liat aja di luar sana, ada yang pake Jaguar, tapi ada juga yang ngga pake sendal buat jalan kaki. Ada yang tiap hari makan di restoran mahal, tapi ada yang cuma makan nasi bekas yang dijemur terus dimasak lagi. Sebaliknya, ada orang yang menggunakan nama kemiskinan buat mencari keuntungan. Ada juga yang ngga seneng ama orang yang beda.
Semua itu apa karena nasionalisme yang kurang, jadi lebih mementingkan diri sendiri daripada kepentingan orang lain dalam 1 negara? Apa karena egoisme yang begitu tinggi? Apa karena AROGANSI? karena perilaku konsumtif dan gengsi yang mendominasi? apa karena terlalu "religius"?apa karena ANTI PERBEDAAN? apa karena terlalu SUCI?

wah kalo iya, smua orang Indonesia perlu di-mabim, hahaha (mabim tuh ospek di fakultas aku, heuheu.)
Whoa, sapa juga yang minta dilahirin di Indonesia?kalo pas sebelum turun ke perut ibu aku bisa ngomong ama Tuhan, pastinya aku milih USA ato Jepang buat jadi negara t4 aku dilahirin, wakakak. Tapi ngga boleh gitu ah, ntar negara laen ngga ada yang nempatin soalnya smua orang milih negara yang bagus hahahaha

Yah, aku sih terserah sih, ini cuma pemikiran aja. Cuma semacam nagging feeling yang pengen diomongin tapi ngga tau mau ngomong ama sapa. AKu juga cuma mau ngomong kalo ini pemikiran kasar, ngga bermaksud memulai argumen yang kayanya ngga bakal ada habisnya. Lagian aku cuma mikir dari 1 sisi. Aku juga bukan anak jenius dengan IPK dan IQ tinggi. Cuma seorang mahasiswi yang belum dewasa pemikirannya, tapi ingin bertanya. Cuma seorang anak yang ngga bisa merubah apa2.

moral-sense moral-sense, good bye.

terus sekarang kita musti apa?
I do not know because I am what you call, stupid
hahaha, bingung kan? udah panjang2 gini, ngga ada solusi sama sekali LOL.. malah bikin ruwet XDDDDDD

kalo udh gini, bener banget kata Kyo:
-Human being just exists, Nothing more-

P.S. Kalo ada kata2 yang pedes ato apa, ya maap, hehe. ato aku mau ditangkep dan dipukulin juga? boleh...toh smua orang pada akhirnya bakal mati. tapi jangan lupa ya cantumin definisi baru kata "demokrasi" di Kamus Besar Bahasa Indonesia. ^_*

Hachi's Birthday!!

2008-06-06T04:42:18Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HACHI-CHAN!!!!!!! ♥♥

^^ Hope you'll be cuter than before, haha And more mature of course. Wishes you all the best of your life. and good luck with getting scholarship ^^

(Btw I want to tell you that next two week I won't be around since I'll have my exam. Wish me luck too! ^^)

Achel's BDAY!

2008-06-03T07:57:41Z

Today is not an ordinary day since....
today is my eldest sister's bday!!!!!!!!!!!

happy belated 34 bday my sis !
this is a bday card for you, which is so ugly since I only took 2 hours to make it ;___;
In my spare time I'll make something better for you
wish you all good luck on every aspect of your life,especially your family's happiness.
(what a standard greeting haha)

(click on the image above to see the image on bigger size)

RePlay part3 : Publication and Documentation Division---it's my team.

2008-05-29T12:51:03Z

ahh, finally the event is over!
I'm so relieved yet so sad. Relieved because the event went almost according to the plan,sad because now I come back to my regular activity; which is so boring.
I didn't say that I'm not happy because now I don't have to work my butt really hard to do all of my job for the event, but..it's just sad to know that all of the members of my team won't work together again. I guess I should say that I love my team. Best team I ever had. Well not the most perfect team, but I'm really really happy worked with them.

But quit being sentimental, since I post pics, girls ^^

Ryan.
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Ferry. Ferry was with his GF

Albertus. Hahahaha, his face OMG. The last picture Albertus and Priska working on multimedia behind other screen.

Jeremia had his head SPINNI~~~~NG!!

Priska. Her smile is cuteee~~!

hahaha, Jeremia and Ivan Daniel. Ivan Daniel looks like a child XDDDDDD. Can't stop laughing when I see this pic LOL But he's cute ^^

Elsa and Priska.

Me and Iqe, the stage manager. We took the photo behind the big screen.

Me and Reza behind the screen.

MY LOVELY TEAM!!!!! Publication and Documentation Division. There are 3 person missing though. Took this photo after the event is done, and we were too exhausted so the pics are not good enough.

AND THE BONUS ISSSSS:

Me and arceydh . She's so lovely with that polkadot dress right? ^^

it's mee! The ugly me Y___Y look at my tanned skin and my almost-looked-like-a-man face! *sigh* I'm not a camwhore, so I don't know what have possessed me when i decided to take this pic and posted them, haha. I laughed so hard when I saw my smile in this pic, but well.. too lazy to take another picture lol

and these are the pics from the inauguration. WELL DONE! I bet now you're sick of my pictures haha

RePlay part2 : the inauguration

2008-05-29T12:17:57Z

sooo, these are pictures from the event. Without much babbling, here they are.

in the gate..

My lecturers and their daughter. Their daughter is my senior ^^

giving the speech : Our dean assistant and the leader of commitee

My class LOL

These are the pictures from some divisions: Decoration division, Sekre Division, Equipment Division, and Funding Division.

On the left: Me and Rina the MC. On the right: Alexia, she was the stage manager.

Patrick Chocolate BAnd. One Band from my class. They're crazy btw, lol

Comsumption Division.

My friends Feredy and Iienz. On the right is the pic of Babeh and his family, they helped us a lot.

My seniors. On the left image, they were holding the booklets, which cover was made by mee!!! XDDDDDD

Enjoying the show, hahahaha.

Ami and Arie Daging. They are the main MC, esp Arie Daging who is a pro MC and presenter from Prambors Radio.

MCs again. There are 5 MCs in this event. These pics shows Albert and Banu, pretending as presenters from Radio.

My juniors. Looks like they enjoyed the event, lol

ROSYO, yoyo man Indonesia.and the breakdancers.

Juice Berry Crunch Band. They played Jazz songs. Their songs are good, I tell you. And Alexia likes the drummer, Ojer. Hahahaha, she'll killed me if she read this XDDDD

The Breakdancers.

Elsa, she's in my team. She played keyboard along with her mom, who is my lecturer too.

The dancers is from my classes.

stage and event's manager division.

On the Left : Wew, God her costumes is sooo hilarious. And look at her expression LMAO
On the Right : The smartest girl in my class hahahaha

hahahaha, now you know where I was.

Praying together after the event is done.

P.S. Will be continued againnn!!!!

RePlay part1 : day before

2008-05-29T11:25:31Z

Like I promised, I post pics from the music event (or inauguration of my faculty exactly) which was held on May 24th last week. The event was called RePlay, which is the acronym for Rewind your Playlist.
This is the pics when we stayed on the campus one day before the event was held. We worked till night (and some even didn't sleep) to finish all the animations, cards, decoration, event's rundown and many more.
I don't even want to tell you where I was, since I didn't stayed at campus that night. I had finished my works, so I went home to take a rest. All of people here in the pics are my classmates (class of 2005).

making the powerpoint for the screen.....

Bringing TV to our university. I bet he's so bored lol

Natauli, the leader of Decoration Division. I'm really wondering why did she play cards when she had much work to do.

Ivan Daniel, one of the member of my team, Publication and Documentation Division. Idk what kind of pose is this, hahaha

Both of them were going to be the MC on the event. I bet they were talking bout the event's rundown.

Haha, making animation is soo tiring!!!!

Reza, the leader of comitee. He slept over in campus for 2 days making animation. His work are so cool! He wasn't spending 3 nights in vain ^^

the meeting of the commitee. This is my class (class of 2005)

Guys from Decoration Division. But hey, why did they use the laptop?

Decorating the hall.

Floor manager, Stage manager, and show director. They were sleepin in university too.

I was giggling when I saw these pics for the first time. We were all so exhausted there're no good pictures were taken, lol.
there's no picture of me, but I promised you I'll post my pic in the next post. just you wait XD

P.S. TO BE CONTINUED!!!!!

My birth month profile

2008-05-27T11:40:36Z

been tagged by arceydh , my lovely friend. She said it was a must for me to do this meme (when she didn't tag other 4 people to do this meme), hahaha. That girl, she amuses me a lot lol

Okay here's the meme:

Rules:
-Pick your birth month
-Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you
-Bold the five-ten that best apply to you
-Copy to your own journal, with all twelve months under a lj-cut
-Tag 5 people

JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.
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FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.
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MARCH: Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves travelling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.
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APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.
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MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.
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JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.
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JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.
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AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.
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SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.
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OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. ~~Inner and physical beauty~~. Lies but doesn't pretend. ~~Gets angry often~~. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but ~~recovers easily~~. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. ~~Decisive~~. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.
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NOVEMBER: Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.
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DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

Hey, almost all of them are highlighted LOL Arceydh said to me that almost all of traits from my birth month is a bit selfish, hahaha. But srsly, most of them suits me.

I won't tag anyone, lol. For you who like this meme, feel free to do it ^^

ached

2008-05-17T12:15:59Z

So I've been so busy I couldn't have my internet life again. If some of you has missed me, I tell you girls, I miss you too
Since I am the leader of Publication and Documentation team for the music event in my faculty I've mentioned before, practically I don't have time for myself.
My friends actually said that I didn't have to force myself, but then again, this is my responsibility and I have to make everything goes right. *sigh* I'm so tired.

The event will be held on 24th May 2008, which means next week. I'll post pics if I'm not too lazy lol

soo, this is one of the posters I had made for that music event. Actually I have more than that since my job is to make some design for booklet, posters, and banner. But days ago when I felt so tired and exhausted, I played with one of the poster using Adobe Imageready and the tutorial which had been in my computer for ages lol (my first time using this software haha). Soo, this is the result. Not really good I think lol

and Britt, I miss you too *hugs*

CRAP!

2008-05-05T09:02:01Z

I'm still aliveeeee!!!

I'm so exhausted. Gods *dies*
~~and my back hurts too.~~

somebody please rescue mee~~~~~

Cam's BDAY!!

2008-04-27T11:24:46Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ♥CAMERON♥!!!!

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
uh well, I know it's late, since your bday was 4 days ago....

I wish you all the best ^^ and I hope you'll be happy with your life ^^
~~I told Die to send bday kisses to you XDDDDD~~

A Dir en Grey quiz Whose ass could you claim?

Kyo!!!
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A Dir en Grey crotch claim quiz Who'll be sleeping in your bed?

You got Kyo!!
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Awwwww!! I claim Kyo's ass and he's going to sleep with mee~~~ XDDDDDD

and now,,,, I'll go back doing my assignments...
[I think I'm going to be crazy with all of these crazy tasks]
*dies*

a letter to my love

2008-04-21T08:59:58Z

Dear nekokyo_chan,
I don't really know how to tell you this but I'll join the monastery.

I think I realized it when I quoted Santa with Paris Hilton, and I saw you pull the clothes off my pen pal in Ghana.

I'm sure you're frostbitten enough to understand how awful I've felt.

I'm returning your ring to you, but I'll keep my common sense as a memory.

You should also know that I was interviewed by the Times about embarrassing rash.

Go burn.
deadlycherry

How to do this:

Dear (the person who last commented on your journal).
I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___.
I think I realized it ___2___ ___3___, and I saw you ___4___ ___5___.
I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___.
I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory.
You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___.
___12___,
-your name-

1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister

2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kebab - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
Other - With George Bush and his wife

4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit at
Other - Drive out

5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My pen pal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - High
House - Scarred
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
Other - Ashamed

7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this.
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks

8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service

9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbor Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David's tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college

10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked

11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an Eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics

12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - Fuck off now
France - In pain
Other - Greetings to your freaky family

personality meme

2008-04-21T06:55:29Z

yesterday I got severe stomach ache I nearly fainted. I know most of us have stomach ache during the first days of our period, but yesterday just... killed me. I was shaking, having cold sweats, and my legs couldn't support me when I'm standing. And I yawned too much. maybe I got this postural hypotension; and my brain lacked of oxygen. idk.
My mom thought that it was mild ache, but when she saw my pale face, she rushed to get me some medicine, lol. fortunately the pain lessened after I took a nap for 2 hours.

but that was yesterday. Now I'm fully charged and healthy, so don't worry about me.
btw I'm looking for some vintage ads, images or posters. next month my faculty will hold a music event, and my friends asked me to make some posters and ads. I dunno if I can do that though, I don't really believe in my graphic skill ^^;;; BUT if I can finish my task, then I'll post it here. promise promise. just dont expect too much though.
any suggestion gals? I'm already looking on plan59.com, vintage_ads and google. ^^

okay, i'm in the mood doing some meme. I stole this from my dears kawaiiwarumono and die_with_smilesthis is very useful though. I like this meme.

My Personality


Neuroticism	51
Extraversion	26
Openness to Experience	59
Agreeableness	44
Conscientiousness	26

You rarely get angry and it takes a lot to make you angry, however you tend to lack energy and have difficult initiating activities. You tend not to talk much and prefer to let others control the activities of groups. You tend not to express your emotions openly and are sometimes not even aware of your own feelings. You dislike confrontations and are perfectly willing to compromise or to deny your own needs in order to get along with others, however you generally see others as selfish, devious, and sometimes potentially dangerous. You have a strong sense of duty and obligation, and feel a moral obligation to do the right thing.

Take a Personality Test now or view the full Personality Report.

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Neuroticism

Overall Score	51
Anxiety	47
Anger	7
Depression	81
Self-Consciousness	58
Immoderation	45
Vulnerability	76

You are generally calm, although some situations can make you feel anxious or tense. You rarely get angry and it takes a lot to make you angry. You tend to lack energy and have difficult initiating activities. You are not generally self conscious about yourself. You often resist any cravings or urges that you have, but sometimes you give in. You experience panic, confusion, and helplessness when under pressure or stress.

Extraversion

Overall Score	26
Friendliness	18
Gregariousness	11
Assertiveness	4
Activity Level	65
Excitement-Seeking	63
Cheerfulness	67

People generally perceive you as distant and reserved, and you do not usually reach out to others. You tend to feel overwhelmed by, and therefore actively avoid, large crowds. You often need privacy and time for yourself. You tend not to talk much and prefer to let others control the activities of groups. You lead a moderately paced life. You like some energetic activities, but also like to relax and take it easy. You enjoy some excitment and risk taking in your life. You experience a range of positive feelings, including happiness, enthusiasm, optimism, and joy.

Openness to Experience

Overall Score	59
Imagination	39
Artistic Interests	71
Emotionality	26
Adventurousness	40
Intellect	69
Liberalism	81

You are a moderately imaginative person who enjoys a good balance between the real world and fantasy. You love beauty, both in art and in nature. Sometimes you become easily involved and absorbed in artistic and natural events. You tend not to express your emotions openly and are sometimes not even aware of your own feelings. Familiar routines are good, but sometimes you like to spice up your life with a bit of adventure or activity. As a person who is open-minded to new and unusual ideas, you love to play with and think about ideas. You also like to debate intellectual issues and often enjoy riddles, puzzles and brain teasers. Often you exhibit a readiness to challenge authority, convention, and traditional values. Sometimes you feel a certain degree of hostility toward rules and perhaps even enjoy ambiguity.

Agreeableness

Overall Score	44
Trust	12
Morality	25
Altruism	54
Cooperation	77
Modesty	66
Sympathy	41

You generally see others as selfish, devious, and sometimes potentially dangerous. You believe that a certain amount of deception in social relationships is necessary. You are guarded in new relationships and less willing to openly reveal the whole truth about yourself. You will help others if they are in need. If people ask for too much of your time you feel that they are imposing on you. You dislike confrontations and are perfectly willing to compromise or to deny your own needs in order to get along with others. You are willing to take credit for good things that you do but you don't often talk yourself up much. You are mostly a compassionate person, however you prefer to make objective judgments when possible.

Conscientiousness

Overall Score	26
Self-Efficacy	20
Orderliness	11
Dutifulness	67
Achievement-Striving	23
Self-Discipline	31
Cautiousness	52

Often you do not feel effective, and may have a sense that you are not in control of your life. In general you tend to be disorganized and scattered. You have a strong sense of duty and obligation, and feel a moral obligation to do the right thing. You are content to get by with a minimal amount of work, and might be seen by others as lazy. You find yourself procrastinating and show poor follow-through on tasks. Often you fail to complete tasks - even tasks that you want very much to complete. You are not an overly cautious person. You will think about alternatives and consequences but make up your mind fairly quickly.

I took this test twice since my computer is not really cooperating with me (>___< ) I think the first result is explaining my personality more, but my computer decide to be error suddenly, and I lost the result. But this second test isn't bad too. Half truth ^^
Maybe I'll take this test another time, since people changes right?

DiexKyo graphic parade

2008-04-19T02:39:35Z

Wohooo!! midterm is overrr~~~ These 2 weeks had been tiring,and I still feel a bit anxious..I hope I don't fail this time Y___Y as I promised, now I post my work on DiexKyo graphics ^^ First, I want to congratulate Brit for her new DiexKyo Community :diexkyo_love . Since long time ago, I've wanted to make some Diexkyo graphics, but her new community only fueled me more XDDD~ Second, The thing that made me insane was...I LACKED DIExKYO PICTURES. (I know I'm lame, haha) just when I have them together in one picture, there's somebody else between them (mostly Kaoru, lol). ~~Not that I'm anti DiexKaoru, XDDD~~
A~~nd [insert overdramatic drumming here] I made a plain wallpaper! PLAIN!I've never made anything plain before ^^;;; I couldn't choose what brushes I should use, and after trying them for almost 1 hour, I got tired and decided to leave it plain, lol. Don't sue me if it's ugly(;___;) Btw, I collected all of my diexKyo graphics I had made in the past and re-post them.

well, I might just stop my rambling now ;]
enjoy, everyone!

Subject : DiexKyo
items:
[28]icons
[6]FO-banners
[2]headers (with textless version)
[2]wallpapers

Teasers :

1	2	3	4

5	6	7	8

9	10	11	12

13	14	15	16

17	18	19	20

21	22	23	24

25	26	27	28

FO-banners :

headers:

wallpapers :

1280*1024 1280*1024
1024*768 1024*768

Credits : -pictures : kuvat.huumakuva.net,rockonmagz Scans by joyceandou Rasmus LindgrenDaniella Vorndran,Gabrielle Geiselman, and honeymaggots
-textures, brushes : here

Rules :
-comments are love
-Credit if you use any
-Don't hotlink
-Textless can be bases, I don't really mind ^^ but you still have to credit me since I spent lots of time making these ;]

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~visit my graphic archive~

wants more DiexKyo love? join this community

happy bday Toshiya!!

2008-03-31T03:38:45Z

yeah, today is Toshiya's Bday. Now he's 31 years old, if I'm not wrong. And I'm so glad he doesn't have that weird Mexican hairstyle he had at FVT 2006, lol. I like his long black hair better ^^ and some people said that he and Kaoru looked like twins, haha. I have made Toshiya graphics on the previous post, so I think I don't owe Toshiya anything -_-
Btw, my midterm test will be held next week, so I don't have much time to post in my LJ. Don't miss me when I'm not around for 3 weeks ^^ (what? Who's gonna miss me? lol) I'm still working on DiexKyo graphics, so expect them on the next post. ummm, what should I type on the subject : "DiexKyo graphic parade", "DiexKyo stuff", or "Die and Kyo together"? hehehehe

P.S. I want to say sorry if I'm being annoying to some of you.I tend to say too much, and sometimes I don't know when to stop. I often have misunderstanding with people. That's my weaknesses, not to mention my bad english. please don't hate me. I can't bear losing friends again. I already hate myself and my life, and I'm still working on really hard to accept myself the way I am. please forgive me....

my poor attempt making Shinya and Toshiya graphics

2008-03-18T03:28:46Z

Heyho people! this time I decide to post some Toshiya and shinya icons, plus the FO banners.
Originally I want to post these on Shinya's birthday, but I was too lazy lol Personally I don't really like my FO banners since they're too simple for my own liking, but idk if you like them. You decide ^^

icons :

[15]Shinya
[15] Toshiya

Preview :

1	2	3	4	5

6	7	8	9	10

11	12	13	14	15

16	17	18	19	20

21	22	23	24	25

26	27	28	29	30

alternatives

1	2	3	4

5	6	7	8

FO banners :

[2]Shinya
[2]Toshiya

credits:
pictures : Tschoenni, powermetal.de, rockonmagz Scans by

joyceandou , Torsten Volkmer
textures, brushes : here

my graphic archive

after the surgery

2008-03-10T11:31:09Z

yesterday, my glasses was crashed. Actually it broke into 2 pieces because I dropped it.
See, I dropped my glasses when I was headbanging to Dir en grey's songs which were played by a band called Shuriken. When I realized that my glasses was broken, I said :"It's okay, since I still have the frame with me." But guess what, I LOST THE FRAME TOO!!Damn, that means I had to pay for about 1 million rupiahs for that T__T
I'm so stupid, really. That is my favorite glasses!! now I had to pay for my carelessness, literally. I need to pay to my mom for my new glasses(with new frame) from my money. Damn, I think I can't buy anything for next 5 months. I think I won't go to japanese cosplay and music festival ever again.X<

And by the way, long time no see everyone!I haven't been online for a week, hahah. 4 days ago I get a minor surgery for my tooth. My canine was taken because it had been inside my gum for long time. If it hadn't been taken, I got a risk of ameloblastoma, some kind of benign cyst/tumor that can be dangerous for me. I'll have 2 oh-so-called-minor surgery waiting for me to take my molars, but the doctor said I can take my time and get ready before I want to take the next surgery.
For 4 past days, the left side of my face was swollen around the lips and cheek. It gotten so big my mom said that I looked like I was beaten LOL. My friend said that I looked like a bear (>__<) So for 2 days, I didn't attend classes. When I was at home, I spent my time making some icons, but I'm not posting them here since it's few. Sorry everyone XD
but I promise you some DiexKyo icons! happy to hear that? hahah

and for you all of my LJ friends, I MISS YOU SO MUCH!*hugs* btw, sorry for my rambling..
and now, the meme thing...

HAPPINESS MEME
List ten things that recently made you happy, then tag ten people to do the same.

1. Dir en grey. I mean, everything about Dir en grey. Concert, songs, photos, PVs, interviews, you named it.
2. all of my close friends,in real life and LJ (thank you for being patient with me).
3. DiexKyo fanfictions!!! OMG, I love this pairing so much right now
4. reading Kyo's poem and lyrics
5. making some graphics with photoshop
6. my computer Kuro-chan, and my external harddisk (her name is Betsy)
7. talking with kawaiiwarumono. (yes, you Brit)
8. DiexKao fanfictions
9. playing with my niece and nephew, and talking with my eldest sister
10. everything which makes me feel that I'm loved and cared about.

I won't tagged anyone. Getting tired with these games lately.
btw, can I list things that recently made me unhappy too? that would be a lot haha