this video is so inspiring. This video is about Matt, doing same dance everywhere, around the world. At first I laughed at his dance, but when I watched more, I realized the meaning behind his dance [and action]-------- to unite the world. this is sooo awesome! 

and...

R.I.P Michael Jackson.
Thank you for everything..

also another meme: this one i stole from eventhevoice

ask me a question! or five, or twenty. ask anything you want, and i'll answer as honestly as possible.
this is the question from Britt to all of her flist:

1. why do you post photos in your journal? and if you don't, why not?
hmmm there's no main reason, but same with most all of you, because we've never meet each other, some photos taken from my life would help us to know each other better,at how we live our life--- as some of us lived in different country, at the progress of our life. I'm really excited to see photos from my flist, because I'll know them better bit by bit. ^^

anddd you can ask me anything you want! about my country [indonesia], what i'm doing right now, what i like, anything. ^3^

check out my LJ
deadlycherrydeadlycherrydeadlycherrydeadlycherrydeadlycherry

anyway, I made the banner using Adobe Illustrator CS3. Well it's not really good, but I'm satisfied with the result XDDDD
ohh and this lovely layout is made by milou_veronica. I love the rainbow colors in it ^^

4 days ago I had cold. I had fever and I have been coughing and sneezing badly -___-  I had took medicine, so my condition is better now.. Sneezes has reduced, but the cough is still bad. ( >,,< ) I hope I'll get well soon,,^^

( anyhooo, this is honesty meme )

Today is Vesak day [one of religious festival of Buddhist] and we have holiday. As because I don't have any work to do, so I sleep a lot *blush* and learn to make a pop art banner using Adobe Illustrator from this tutorial.
I chose to trace Ueno Juri's face and it took several painful hours to trace her face! lol. Mind me, I'm a beginner at this hahaha. Maybe some of you don't know her; Ueno Juri is one of Japanese actress I adore so much XDDD She can play cute characters, and then suddenly act as boyish woman who has man's soul inside her body. A lot of her role involved music too. In Swing Girls, she played as saxophone player, yet in Nodame, she played as piano student in music college. She's so cool!! XDDD if you interested about her, you can join this community juri_ueno

Back to the main topic, lol. So I trace her face from this image




and it turned out to be like( THIS )</div>please be kind to me, I know it's not good, hahaha. I was a bit confused when I was drawing her hair since I couldn't make good strokes at her hair, hahaha. In the end, I just deleted all of weird lines in her hair hahaha


oh, by the way, I'm considering to make my LJ limited for my friend only. hmmm, maybe it's not that soon, since I'm planning to change my banner and layout too. Much work to do! haha.. Britt, can you teach me how to make good layout? I'm bad at CSS and when I'm looking at your always changing layout make me jealous lol. Please recommend me some good layout community/journal!!! thank you sooo much XDDD

As I bleed, people smile
As I crawl, people laugh
As I die, people cries
because of the death of nobody.




Yesterday I went out with my best friends from my high school days. It’s been so long since we spent time together, and as expected, yesterday we had a really fun time together. First, we met at one of my friend’s home, then went out to eat pizza, and then took some photos in Gedung Sate, one of old building at my town. At first we wanted to go to the museum, but that was Saturday, and the museum closed early. Yesterday we laughed sooo much, reminiscing all the times we had since we became friends 5 and half years ago, in the good times and bad times we had as friends. I nearly couldn’t stop my smiles LOL.

Six of us had been friends since high school, but we went to different colleges. Three of them are in the same college, but they are at different faculties. The faculties they are in are visual design, chemistry, and material science and engineering. Other two of my friends went to different colleges, and they take civil engineering and dentistry as their major.

Honestly, I nearly forgot how good it is spending time together with them. Because all of us are not that rich, we went one place to another using public transportation, we ate cheap foods, didn’t spend too much money, but we were happy. Reminding all of this, I couldn’t help but compare them with my friends at my faculty. Most of them are rich, and when we went out together, the feelings are...different.

I respect all of my best friends from my highschool. Struggling with their own way, not just spending money from their rich parents like there’s no other day. Of course I don’t want to lie to myself, sometimes I like that too, spending too much money for something unimportant. But I believe some of my friends in my faculty never experience how to be poor, haha. It’s not that we are ‘that’ poor, but we’re not THAT rich. Sometimes I’m tired at how spendthrift they are. honestly, once i didn’t agree at what my close friends in my faculty said when we were discussing about people who demonstrate because of the increase of gasses and oil prices. Since then, I always thought, how people’s mind and principle can be influenced strongly by environment where they are living.

I want to live like my friends from highschool, not like this. But, if i always think like that, when will I grow? When will I become mature? I don’t want surender just because of some obstacles!

I want to be more than this. I want to be someone. I want to use all of my strength to be more clever. I want to catch all of the opportunity I’ve been missed out. I want to live my life better than before. I want to be mature. I want to struggle, I want to achieve something. I want to have better life.I don’t want to only mourn, but do something so that I can be SOMEONE. Sometimes I feel that i’m useless. I’m not using all of my brain capacity, just playing around and never really learn.

I want to be like them. I want to be someone.

Please God, help me.

Anyone, I’m sorry for the long update. I got so many things to do (not to mention lazy lol), so I just had the chance to update my LJ now XDD

In the previous week I accompanied my sister whom had some cysts in her breast removed. She called 2 days before the surgery, told me there are 2 cysts in her right breast, and asked me to accompany her in the hospital during the surgery (She lived in different town from me). As my mom get panicked after hearing the news, me and my mom rushed to the town where my sister lived ^^;;; I had the chance to look at the tumors as it were removed. the diameter of that cysts are about 1 centimetres, and the doctor assumed that the cysts are benign. We still need to look the result from the biopsy though, if it's a benign or malignant tumors. I had took the pictures of the tumors, but there was some errors occured in my camera's card ---or in my card reader, I'm not exactly sure ^^;;--- that’s why I can't show you the the images *pouts* .. Talking about the errors, all of the pictures in my camera is gone! arrgh I'm so upset ( >,,< ). One more thing. I had no chances to meet my friend who lived next town from my sister. Damn it.. It's rare for me to go to this town and yet we can't meet!TT_________TT but the most important thing is my sister health, so yeah,, as long as she is healthy..nothing else matters ^^

Yesterday my sister phoned my parents, The pathology examination from the tumor said that it is not malignant. That’s a great news to us and for her ^__^b I feel so glad, because the chance of full recovery is bigger and recurrency of another tumor in her breast is lower ^^

Otherwise, I had some fun times there..when I was in my sister’s house, she made me black forest cake! YUMMY! ^3^ Before, she asked me to scan some old pictures (They are sooo many >__< ) so I asked her to make me some cakes lol. (Hey I couldn’t helped it since I got sweet tooth hahaha). She is good at cooking, believe me, since she has a plan to make an online bakery. BUT! She reasoned that she is still in recovery after surgery (damn hahaha), so in the end it were me and my brother-in-law who did almost all of the cooking ^^;;;;



This was the first layer for the tart. At first I thought it was not edible LOL.. yeaah, blame me for the weird shape XDDD



Me, my bro-in-law, and my sis were decorating the cake.


LMAO I think I don’t have talent to decorate that cake

After several painful hours............
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[insert overdramatic drumming here] the cake was done!!! Yaaay!! not bad for the first time hahahhaha
And the taste is quite good lol..

( my first cake is here XDDDDD )

today is arceydh</lj> 's birthday~~ 
Happy birthday Man-chaan!!
hope this year would be great for you. Wish you all the best, and I hope you can live your dream this year.
And owwww~~~ you're 22 now! so old hahahaha



( picture spamming for arceydh's bday, xDD )

that's all..Sorry I don't make a presentable birthday card for you.. My PC's mouse was damaged and it was irritating as hell when I want to make a proper birthday card. I can't wait to see you next 2 weeks ^^ luv u ^3^

taken from keleosnoonna

HOMOPHOBIA IS WRONG

I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.
I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.
I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.
We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.
I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.
I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.
I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.
I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.
We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.
I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.
I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.
I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.
I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.
I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.
I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.
I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.
I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didn’t have to always deal with society hating me.
I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.
I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

*~Repost this in your jounal if you believe homophobia is wrong.\~

MERRY X'MAS EVERYONE!
I hope Christmas will bring joy to all of you ^^

 

as for me,
just had these cake, Charlemagne's sparkling grape juice, rootbeer, and Pu Tau Chee Ciew (contains 5% alcohol) for my xmas, accompanied with yaoi manga-scans I recently downloaded ^^;;; Nothing special really X<
Oh well I should continue write my thesis tomorrow ( >,,< )

Uhh, I wanna drink something stronger! I want to drink sake which contains 40% alcohol tonight but I couldn't find it on the imported foodstore I usually go. The other store is just too far from my house, so I just have this.
maybe I'll buy it for new year's eve tehee..

anyway, Happy Christmas (again)! *smooches*

first of all:
BRITT AND CAM, THANK YOU SOOO MUCH!!
I love both of youuu~~ *smooches* 



( the rest goes here.. don't bleed your eyes though XDD )
 
since I'm happy, all of my f-list will get kisses from my (new) cat, Ireng XDDD Britt and Cam will get double kisses LOL